me working again on my movies section while rewatching them to have things to say because it's been 6 months and I don't remember shit:

The other day I was trying to put how I've been feeling lately into words and this old meme came to mind:

It's the perfect representation and I hate it

Sometimes I see posts from people who have irl friends who are into fandom but like, in the shipping, reading zines and doujinshi sense? Who like buying merch and maybe have ita bags or shrines of their faves? Sometimes even the type of friends you can organize small parties to celebrate some character's birthday with? Or just meet to drink and fangirl together?

I see these things and I wonder how it feels to be God's favorite

(I've met a few people irl who were into anime, but only one of them I actually could consider my friend. And she wasn't like that, at least not with me.

I say anime because that's what I was thinking about when I wrote that, but I guess this could be applied to any of the things I love. I wonder how it is to have irl friends who, not only share your interests, but also are on the same wavelenght when it comes to those things. I wonder if I'll ever experience this in my life.)

Yesterday I finally got my last wisdom tooth extracted and I couldn't be happier. She didn't have to break it and out of all my wisdom teeth this one is the prettiest.

It was a bit tricky though, or maybe it just feels that way because I was tense. idk. At first I was worried her hand would slip and she would stab me in the back of my throat with one of these mfs. And then I was worried she could break my jaw, because she was putting so much pressure there compared to all the other times, and also a few weeks ago I read a tweet saying that's a thing that can happen and got scared.

I usually keep my eyes closed until she says she is done, but this time I happened to blink right when she pulled the tooth and I saw it coming out of my mouth. It felt magical in a weird way? lol There was so much blood everywhere too.

So far it's looking like this wound won't give me as much trouble as the last, but guess it's still a bit soon to say. Crossing my fingers so it doesn't get infected. Taking antibiotics is the bane of my existence.